Damn eff-ing tired of all these things now. Am very very very tired. Things start to change for the worst since 2009. How i wish i was just a toddler with no worries. He said i have something in my heart that i just can't give up on, which caused an "emotional" problem for me. Which is why i keep waking up everytime in the middle of the night, since near the year-end of 2009. He said that i need to give up, it's no use getting troubled over those things anymore. What is gone, is gone. No use clinging to that hope that someday it will return, that it will changed to be better. I really want to give up. Not only that thing, but other things that is making me damn stressed right now. But i just can't. I can't run away from problems like these. They'll just come back. I can't even talk about my feelings to anyone anymore. I know i can't keep my feelings and thoughts bottled up anymore. But i just can't seem to share or tell them to anyone. I'm really damn stressed over these things. I really am. I really, really don't know what to do right now. I keep telling myself not to cry over these things cos it's no use. If i cry, will these things be alright? No. So there's no use crying. But sometimes, i just can't stop myself. I just keep clinging to that small hope that things will change for the better soon, but i guess that i've become blind and can't see that hope anymore. I just gotta be strong. Be immune to these problems. Cannot give in to sadness. Be "cold-hearted" i guess.

LALALA .
UPDATES !
Friday we had OM spontanous round .
Our question was :
"You have something that you want badly and it is out of your reach . What are ways that you can reach it ."
For example ,
"I stand on a chair to get the jar from the top shelf ."
Haishhhhh .
Thot we did great budden i guess not to ACS(I) or RGS standards bahh ):
Hmms ,
Than ytd reached school at 8am .
Put th props in the lorry than went for rehearsals .
We had to rehearse infront of the badminton players !
x.x
Thanthan ,
Makan at opposite ,
Showered than went to dance studio for wearing of costumes and putting on makeup .
Went there .
Awhile than we performed .
We performed at 4pm i think .
SIAN LAA .
Dao mei . First is the board/map (asia) cannot stand ,
THAN !
Th juries cmi .
Cannot work .
HALF WAY WHILE PERFORMING SUMMORE !
SIAN .
We almost over-shot th 8mins .
Lucky never lorh .
If over-shot got penalties .
THAN HORH .
We lucky cos our timing was 7mins and 59sec !!
WOAH KAY !
In th end ,
Ofcos we never win .
):
Was damn moody .
BUT !
Th sec3 team won 3rd
HAHA .
THAT ASS BUS DRIVER !?!
STUPID LA HE .
We get on th bus he immediately leave .
Ask him to stop and wait for Mr Jasper , one of th ghuy from sec3 group && th skinny modern dance ghuy horh ,
HE DW !
FOOK .
Almost all of us were cursing and swearing in the bus .
Hmms ,
Than went back school debrief all these .
Was damn moody .
Cos ,
We lost + that ass bus driver + last day (excluding cleaning of OM toilet/props room & th dinner) of OM .
LUCKY Jaslyn called and ask mii go fellowship with them .
Actually debated with myself whether wanna go anot .
Budden in th end went ,
Cos even thou i damn tired budden i wanna meet them (:
Walked to hub with Simei .
She bought bubbletea than walked to mrt station .
Peii her awhile than i mrt to Changi airport .
LOST MYSELF .
Reached at 9pm in th end i walkwalkwalk cos lost .
Than in th end found my way at around 9.50 liddat .
Was at Terminal 2 i think .
Than fellowship was at Terminal 1 .
=="
LOL .
Left changi near 11pm i think .
Mrt-edd than reach amk around 12+am liddat .
Jun Long walked mii till my house outside .
THANKS JUN LONG !
:D
Hmms ,
Than i wash up than realised my main phone cannot charge .
Than nvm .
Used my temporary phone .
IN TH END !
Morning woke up my temporary phone spoilt .
Nice one .
Couldn't read/send sms or call out .
Can only answer calls .
-.-
Went Orchard to fix my main phone than can only take back on Friday .
):
Went toast box makan with mummy than mrt to Bishan to Claudine house .
Went Thompson plaza find her than we makan ice-cream (:
Went to (Old Thompson View Condo) home ,
Comp-edd awhile ,
Went out to hub .
Changed money than met Sithu && Douglas :DDDDDDD
Went home (amk) ,
Took another temporary phone than went out dinner .
Douglas left after awhile )))))))))))))))))))))):
Went makan dinner with Claudine && Sithu .
RED BULL ROCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKS !
:D :D :D
Walked Claudine to mrt station ,
Walked Sithu to his house outside ,
Than walked home alone .
Poor mii ):
Budden chatted with Sithu on phone .
AHHHA !
Reached home than now blogging lorhx .
HAHAHA .
Kay narhs !
Wanna facebook liaozsx ,
BYEBYEZSX PEEPO !
Byebyezsx !
:D :D :D

I LOVE YOU BABY FOREVER ! ;D Our story started on 07042010 ; 9.43pm xD

LALALA .
Long time no update !
HAHAHA .
SIAN !
Nothing much to update siiah .
Sadsad .
T.T
Tml spon round than sat is Long-Term .
OM competition .
JYJY YEA !
AHHA !
Tml leaving class at 11am .
WOOHOO ~~
Hees !
Cos no need face that cher !
>D
Hmmmms ,
Next thursday his bday lerh lehhs .
Idk what to give !
x.x
Suggestions ?
(:
Okok ,
Wanna go update plurk && facebook lerhx .
Byebyezsx !